Out from hospital

hari ini adalah hari selasa. its a special day for me. its coz of this is the last day for me to stay here, in this room in the hospital after one week I live here to raise my condition from ill. I got a problem with my own lunghs. Its coz of too tired too. so I have to out of my last job at bank. but I am not regret. coz I think I will and i can find another job later if I get well soon. The doctor says to me to take some rest for a half of year, fully. what I can say, I just can follow the order. I take some rest for my kindness. no doubtfull, I'll prepare anything at my home with my all equipment that I've prepared before. I'll looking for a lot of job from my home where is in the middle of a middle village. but with all of my preparation before, I think I'm ready to face the dare next time. I saw a job vacancy last night. it seems so great and meaningful job for me. hahahaha..... now I got to prepare my self and any stuff that I took to this hospital. nice to meet this room, even a lot of experiences I have to had when I was here. also a frightened moment last night when there is someone next to my room have to past away this morning. whole of his family cried and sreamed along this morning. I cant sleep well when I heard it. oug... got to go now. bye...
PS : Thanx alot to all of my friends who came here and see me when I'm ill on my bed. your pray and support make me feel so proud and once again, meaningful. once again, thank you so much to you all.

I am back...

dah lama juga ak ga nulis di blog ini. skarang waktunya untuk aktif dan berjaya kembali. today is a really bad day. btw, jumat kmrn ak sign out dr`gawean ku di axa mandiri. karena emang sakit and ak dah terima gaji pertamaku, so ak kabur aja. daripada terusan makan ati gitu. mending juga nyari gawe lain. skarang ak lagi jadi buronan. pagi tadi ak dicariin asm ku di kosan. pake acara bawa bala bantuan segala? males banget sih. untung aja ak segampang itu ketipu. ternyata emang bener dugaan ku. skrg ak lagi sembunyi dari peredaran. berdasar info yang ak dapat, dalam beberapa hari ini sebaiknya ak menghindar dulu dari yang nama nya rumah dan kosan. padahal itu smua adalah tempat teraman di dunia kalo nurut ku sendiri. bingung musti gimana, akhirnya ak ngumpet di tempat temen. untung ak masih punya banyak temen sma di sini. bener2 kerjaan yang nyebelin. gaji gede? sapa bilang? abis buat operasional bu. dapet bonus? dari hongkong? iya kalo target, nah kalo ngga target gimana? masih dapet bonus? jelas engga donk. dapet omelan sih iya. yang pasti sekarang ak lagi menata kembali hidupku. biar ga gila and stress pasca resign from the last job. now I have to find another one. but dont worry, I'll get it soon. key? doain ak ya guys..?

my fave moment

all this pics are my fave moment...co cweet...hihihi...

my fake marriage

before I write this story, I want to say sorry to qyu. Its just kidding, and I swear that you are so funny and innocent.

It happens a few days ago when I went to campus, joined with all of my friend assisting and supporting agil (my friend in campus) facing a final thesis examination.
I dont want to come to campus before, coz I'm afraid I will be so nervous eventough its not me who is facing the exam judge.
but suddenly I change my decision, I went to campus altough I've send a sms to her.

after the exam and I wanna go home, my friend asked me:
qyu : 'do you wanna go home?'
me : 'yeah! why?'
qyu : 'may I join with you? I'm on foot to come here'
me : 'okeh. I'll take you home'
qyu : 'hurray! thanx'
me : 'ur welkom'

when on the ride to her (qyu) home, she asked me some questions:
qyu : 'what you gonna do after this'(maybe she means that after we graduate from university)
me : 'I'll go to mayang, I'll take a sample of marriage invitation card'
qyu : 'who is gonna marry?'
me : 'thats me! thats why I'm so busy and can't finish me thesis til now. Its coz of I prepare my marriage'
qyu : 'really? are you sure? its just kidding, isn't it?'
me : 'nope!I'm serious'
qyu : 'wait a minute, I cant believe this. are you really ready for all of this?'
me : 'we have to be ready anytime. It may happens anytime when God want it, right?'(so sorry God, I Involved you in this mess)
qyu : 'yeah! you're right. I'll support you. when it will happen?'
me ; 'in few weeks. You have to come to my party, key?
qyu : 'okeh. I'll come to with eva (one of my another friend)'

I can't believe what it just happened. its so ridiculous.
I put a natural axpression on my face when I answered all her questions.
I told to niar and nda to support me, let it happens naturally. and they said that they do.

a few days later (I mean today), niar send me a sms.
niar : 'niar, is erfan will marry? when is it?' (its coming from qyu which is forwarded to me, but I dunno that its from qyu)
me : 'yup. I'll marry, but I dunno when. wahaha.. why? wanna give me sumthing? thats ok, I'll accept your gift'
niar : 'thats sms from qyu, fun. I dont reply it to her. I'll let her with curiousity'
me : 'wahaha... I'm writing a blog bout her now. so, she's still believing that I'll marry? great...!' (oh gosh, sorry..!)
niar :'dont forget to put my comment there, key?'
me : 'okeh, what kind of comment that you want?'
niar : 'anything! but must be so fun, ridiculous and funny'

OMG, please forgive me.
qyu, sorry ya?

revenge

I dont want to have any revenge in deep of my heart. but sometimes it comes and fullfill my brain and my emotions.
I have one revenge that I keep til now. my last job make me feel so angry and ill, emotionally and physicly.
they didnt understand that wat are they done to me, it had make me dissapointed.
all I should do is just realize my dreams to be someone who is so successful in my life, and then whow them who I am.
no one knows how hurts me heart , except my self. its the deepest illfeel in my life.
God, please let me realize this for me once in my lifetime.

financial crisis of 2008

coz of financial crisis in the property sector of USA, almost all of countries in the world have to received its impact alltogether.
Indonesia is one of them. lot of worker fired from their job coz their company cant hired them anymore.
some economic researcher have told all bout this to the government, but they didnt believe it.
now, the big bubble has already blow wit lot of another countries in the other part of the world.
indonesian decision maker have to take a practical decision to rise the economic sector inside.
they hav to promote real sector that can provide more job opportunity for lot of peoples in indonesia.
they hav to change the economic priority from 'paper economic' to 'real economic'.
but for us who is just a common people, what we can do is just loving and always consuming domestic product.
no more too much importing from the other country to full fill the demand inside.
we can do it by ourself guys.
come on, lets do a small change for a big change in our country.
merdeka!

nu stupidity

I dont want to do anything today. the weather isnt friendly. I went to sleep at 2 o clock last nite. but I wake up at 10. wahaha...
yeah..thats me..kebo!
suddenly, I want to buy an english dictionary for my brother.
coz of I neva give any gift to him in every his birthday since 2 years ago.
so, in 1 PM I go to bookstore.
I choose one of book among lot of them.
but, before I take one of them, I intersted to other side of bookstore.
yup, I went to part of humor book.
I took one great novel that I loved.
and then I took the dictionary without cheking it before.
I pay them at cashier, and go home.
but, I feel so shock when my friends spelled the dictionary that I bought.
he said 'kamus bahasa indonesia' or 'bahasa Indonesia dictionary'
OMG....
I have to buy once more to get the right one.
thats me... stupid and kebo...
gagaga....

madura trip

now I have a good will to write my adventure to madura island a few weeks ago. maybe coz of busy and lazy including dizy makes me so bored and didnt want to write it out.
but now I have it all. hehehe...
actually these trip in kind of 'accident trip'. went to madura island is one of my destination after I finish my thesis, later.
one day, I got sms from my friend (ino). he offered me to join quickcount (QC) of the public election in my province.
once I didnt give him an answer, but suddenly I decided to enter this zone. I take the job coz of:
1. I need money that I could earn from these job.
2. I need to refresh my brain after 1 month I doing my thesis.
3. I love adventure, especially by using motorcycle, and far away from my home.
4. I'll look for my family there, etc.
I join QC training day. I used to do it, coz I've ever do it once. and finally, I got a lot of money! Hurray!
I repair my motorcycle first before I go. 2 hours before midnite formally I go to the target from jember, 12 hours from the target, it is sumenep.
without any permit from my parents, I ride my bike in the late of nite. OMG! its fun but its hurt too.
when I enter sidoarjo, I lost my way. fortunately, I have a feeling that direct me to the right way.
suddenly, when I start entering surabaya city, I almost enter the highway. OMG! coz its coz of I ride my bike at behind of a car. hehehe...
after a lot of struggle for almost half of day, I arrived in sumenep. tired and hurt in my back is what I feel when I feel first time there.
20 years ago I went to sumenep. I forgot most of memory about this town. my aunt direct me to the family in sumenep.
they are so kind. I love them. sumenep is one of residence in indonesia where there is an old kingdom there.
it seems like jogjakarta, bali, cirebon, or another place in indonesia which their old government system are monarch.
I went to the museum, its the first time for me there. so beautiful and interesting for me.
there is a giant Al-Qur'an, when I thought that it was a king's bed in the first time I saw.
my uncle took me to a beautiful beach there. its so wide, calm and nice place. soft and white sand I could find there.
even its more white and softer than belongs to java beach.
I cant believe that I have so many family there. I just knew it after I come to sumenep, alone.
the QC itself run well. but the position of public election place is in the middle of a truly illage area.
even it is next to graveyard. fortunately, its closed by bamboo layer. so I couldnt see it. fiuh...
the weather is so hot, and when the rain comes, its just falls for a few hours, no more than 3 hours. and then the sky come to bright again later.
its so different to java island where the rainfalls coming for along time, even there is no sunlight when its a hard rainfalls.
I just spent my 3 days in sumenep. coz I have to return my QC report to the base, and accept the rest of my fee. once more. hehe...
when I'm on the trip to home and I fill my gas in a gas station in pamekasan, I found another unique place.
common people there call this place as 'api tak kunjung pandam' or 'eternal flame'.
yup, its a natural gas which went out from the ground. they used this to cook their food or another functions.
when I accros the madura strait, I found that suramadu bridge is on the sea and almost finished the construction.
i take a lot of photograph along my journey.
its kind of another adventure for me, as what I've done before to Bali.
What a nive place, but I don't want to live there. hehe...

bakso kepala bayi

tanpa rencana yang matang, aku n nda sepulangnya kami dari rumah Mr. Fuad berangkat menuju sukowono.
mumpung lagi jalan, akhirnya kami membayar penasaran kami terhadap bakso kepala bayi.
awalnya aku pikir ukurannya kecil.
ealah, ternyata gedenya ga ketulungan.
segede bola sepak euy!
plus, di tengah jalan saat kami mencari rumah sodara jauhku di sana, nda tiba2 liat ada warnet yang lokasinya ada di tengah2 sawah, masuk gang pula. secara itu kan sukowono.
spontan aja kita ketawa...
wahahaha...sayang, aku ga berani foto.padahal unik bgt kalo nurut aku tuh.

pak fuad

alhamdulilah...
hari ini aku merasa sedikit lega, karena kebodohanku dalam menyusun dan menulis skripsi telah dikoreksi oleh pak fuad.
beliau telah membuka mata dan telingaku untuk lebih memahami apa yang aku tulis.
dari awal aku memang merasa ada yang salah dengan tulisan ku itu.
minggu pagi ini aku berangkat dari jember menuju bondowoso.
di sanalah kediaman pak fuad berada.
setelah nyasar2 bergembira bersama nda, akhirnya ketemu juga.
dengan bimbingan dari disty, kami menuju rumah beliau.
tanpa harus menjelaskan secara detil, pada akhirnya kami merasa di perbaiki paradigma kami dalam memahami tulisan kami sendiri.
thanx so much Mr. Fuad.
you are so nice and kind lecturer.
hup I can come to your hum l8er.
amien...

anggun

tak ada niat penuh untuk berangkat ke warnet hari ini. karena sebenarnya ada akses internet di kosan ku. aku bisa memakainya kapan pun.
tapi entah mengapa rangsangan diri untuk menuju tempat yang dulu kuakrabi itu begitu besar. dengan sedikit rasa kecewa dengan fasilitas dan speed internet di salah satu warnet di kota jember itu, akhirnya aku berselancar ria di dunia maya.
niat awal mulai kukabulkan dengan membuka email-email dan friendsterku. ku balas dan hapus account yang perlu kulakukan dengan akses internet yang 'lumayan'.
di sela-sela aku berada di dunia maya dan menunggu loadingnya, aku mulai membuka file-file internal di tempat itu.
mulai dari musik, film, hingga gambar aku lihat satu persatu. file yang aku sukai, aku copy menuju flasdisku.
5 GB total kapasitas flasdisku telah penuh. hingga akhirnya aku pindah ke komputerku di kosan.
aku pilih satu persatu file yang masuk kriteriaku.
malam hari setelah aku mengantar bu kosku ke dokter gigi, aku mulai memutar lagu-lagu yang aku copy tadi siang.
saat aku teringat dengan lagu anggun, maka aku segera menikmatinya di telingaku.
satu persatu single yang dulu pernah rilis di masa SMA ku aku ingat-ingat lagi.semua memori muda ku muncul seketika.
sejak kecil aku memang mengagumi Anggun. sosok wanita indonesia yang tidak luntur jiwa nasionalismenya akan Bangsa Indonesia, meskinpun tinggal dan mengembangkan karirnya di negara lain.
lagu-lagunya yang berbagai corak, mulai dari techno, melow, etnis, hingga rock mampu disajikannya dengan sangat apik dan profesional.
range suaranya yang sangat tinggi dan memiliki kekhasan tersendiri tidak akan mampu ditiru bahkan disaingi oleh orang lain.
beberapa singlenya yang memadukan corak etnis dan modern mampu menggetarkan membuat bangga diri sebagai anak Bangsa Indonesia.
tanpa harus meninggalkan satu sisi bentuk irama, corak irama yang terangkum utuh tersebut menyatu dengan pas.
di tengah gempuran mode luar negeri, seperti misalnya cinta laura dkk, anggun masih hadir dengan kepercayaan diri penuh mengusung unsur etnis.
dan lagi-lagi kita akan menjadi rindu dan merasa tidak akan pernah meninggalkan bumi Indonesia kita yang tercinta.
MERDEKA!

thesis

doing a thesis seems like having a girlfriend for me. its because of both are always in my mind in every second of my life. but there is a difference between them. it will stop when I finish it works. but it isn't so with a girlfriend. a girlfirend will always having a place in our part of brain. it doesn't matter whether ist a good or bad memories with him or her. the other similiarities is both can blow our head if we aren't tough enough.
trying so hard with my thesis is the hardest thing that I ever do in my entire life. hope I can finish it soon. as soon as possible.
Amien!

Biangnya Burung ...

Suatu hari Andi bermain ke rumah sang paman, terlihat sang paman sedang asik melihat-lihat burung-burung peliharaannya.

Andi : om, burungnya bagus-bagus ya.

Paman : iya donk ndi...yang ini mahal loh..(sambil nunjuk salah satu burung yang sedang berkicau).

Andi : iya om, hebat burungnya bisa nyanyi. Om beli berapa tuh...??

Paman : 5 juta...!!

Andi : wah...mahal yah...!! Kalo yang ini pasti murah yah om?? (sambil nunjuk burung yg sedang bersender, tanpa mengeluarkan bunyi sedikitpun)

Paman : justru itu lebih mahal lagi...!!

Andi : kok bisa...?? kan yg ini nggak bisa nyanyi om..???

Paman : tapi dia yang mengARANSEMEN LAGUNYA..!!!

confuse

I have no other activity right now. What I do is just trying to finish my thesis to get my bachelor degree title. But now I'm so confuse when I start my 4th chapter. Desperate, confuse and stuck is what I feel right now. There is no one who can help me, except my self. Even I'm afraid if I have to face my lecturer. I lost my self confidence. I cant found it where? OMG, pliz help me? I begging You to assist me here, right now and later.

Kontes Orang Malas

Suatu ketika diadakan kontes ‘orang paling malas’ yang pesertanya dari 3 negara yaitu Jerman,Amerika dan Indonesia.

Peserta pertama dari Jerman menunjukkan kemalasannya dengan tidur di atas tempat tidur dan didorong oleh beberapa orang. Sambil tiduran orang itu membaca majalah.”Malas sekali dia,” celetuk seorang penonton.

Peserta kedua dari Amerika menunjukkan kemalasannya dengan berjalan selangkah demi selangkah seperti siput. “Wah, tambah malas orang itu,” penonton memberikan dukungannya.

Peserta ketiga dari Indonesia, menunjukkan kemalasannya dengan berjalan terpincang-pincang dan lelet sekali. Lalu juri menegurnya:”Kenapa kamu jalannya pincang?” Lalu jawab peserta Indonesia:”Sendal saya penjapitnya lepas,”. Juri berkata lagi:”Kenapa kamu tidak betulkan dulu biar jalannya tidak pincang?”
Jawab peserta Indonesia:”MALAS….AH!”
Karuan saja semua orang bertepuk tangan dan juri langsung memenangkan dia dalam kontes tersebut.