revenge

I dont want to have any revenge in deep of my heart. but sometimes it comes and fullfill my brain and my emotions.
I have one revenge that I keep til now. my last job make me feel so angry and ill, emotionally and physicly.
they didnt understand that wat are they done to me, it had make me dissapointed.
all I should do is just realize my dreams to be someone who is so successful in my life, and then whow them who I am.
no one knows how hurts me heart , except my self. its the deepest illfeel in my life.
God, please let me realize this for me once in my lifetime.